holy crap.

two years is a long time.



-sarah

I want the moon and the stars, I want the whole nine yards

I have recently discovered a new artist that I LOVE. It is Charlotte Sometimes and I am a big fan. She reminds me a lot of Ingrid Michaelson. Check her out, she's pretty sweet, and I have my older brother Matthew to thank for introducing me to her. That is my plug for Charlotte Sometimes.

On to other news, I get to see Sarah Alvey this weekend! Holla! I am so excited to see her and she can't come soon enough. It will be nice to finally have a friend in Provo. We are going to have the best time ever. It will probably only make me sad and wishing that fall semester was here. Oh well. It will come soon enough and I should just enjoy the time I have to grow as an individual.
Work is actually going very well. I feel like I am making friends and it is nice having a steady income. It is going to be hard ot go back to school in the fall. I am becoming addicted to making money.
I am also doing very well in my ward, and feel like I am being accepted and that I am making friends. I finally had a weekend where I hung out with people from my ward every day this weekend. It was so fun and I hope that it continues to be fun. And I just found out that my roommate Brooke is staying for summer term and this makes me very very happy. It is one friend that I will get to keep, and I can use all the friends I can get.
So basically I am very happy with my life right now. I wouldn't mind having a boyfriend, but maybe that isn't for me right now. I don't know. For now I am content working all day and playing with my new found friends when I come home and on the weekends.

hooray for road trips

if i heard someone say that they were actually excited to take a road trip that would require three ten hour days of driving, packed into a minivan with four family members, luggage, food, and a dog, i would probably consider them certifiably insane. but here i am, about three or four days away from a road trip exactly like the one described and i am excited beyond all reasoning. maybe its because i'm getting away from indiana for awhile. maybe its because i won't have to work for two whole weeks. maybe its because i'll be in provo for three or four days (which will be about as sad as it is exciting...). maybe its because i'll get to see marci AND cody. or its all of the above (with particular emphasis on the last one). whatever the reason, i am so ready to pack myself into our honda odyssey with the parentals, abby, jackson, and andy the sheltie and get the heck out of here, i can't even think about anything else.
-sarah

The rantings of Marci Wright-do not read

I LOVE 3 day weekends. okay so this is my first 3 day weekend since i have started working and i love it. best thing EVER. I have been spending it with my family, which is always a good time for me since i think they are hilarious. My sister and brother moved up to provo this weekend as they start work as EFY counselors tomorrow. I am so excited to have them so close. I do not do well away from everyone, especially now since I don't really have any friends in the state of Utah anymore. stupid summer. and this darn utah weather that refuses to warm up. how am i supposed to get a decent tan if the sun is never shining? Yeah not possible. my last complaint is about guys. why would a guy date a girl that he doesn't even really like. I will tell you why. because she is only going to be here for 2 more weeks and then they are breaking up. which is so dumb. wasting time, time that could be spent hanging out with and getting to know someone he might actually like and want to have a relationship with. but i guess that would be the smart thing to do and since when do guys do anything that is smart? how many months until fall term and my friends come back?

top 10 things i miss about byu

(these aren't in any order)
1. the people - all of them. every single one. even the stupid whores that i hated.
2. no parents to tell you what to do - i mean, yeah they could tell you what to do, but there was really no way for them to enforce it.
3. late nights - the latest i've been up since i got home? 12:30. i am such a party animal out here.
4. the mountains - i forgot how ridiculously flat indiana is.
5. having roommates - go figure.
6. jamba juice, cafe rio, and earnestly chocolate ice cream - enough said.
7. being able to look up at the y - its kind of silly, but looking up at the y always reminded me that i was actually at byu. that i had done it and gotten accepted. and that i had a lot to be grateful for.
8. the men's chorus - holy jamalama. what i would give to go to a man choir concert right now.
9. the social life - coming home has just reminded me of how much i didn't have a social life here. and i hate it.
10. marci, cody, ginger, jaimie [and brady too, even though i can still see him] - i know, i know. this really kind of goes under number one, but these are the people that i was with the most and that i miss the most.

this is why i don't make decisions.

if you've ever even talked to me before, you'll know that i DO NOT make decisions easily. and normally, i have to have other people help me make them. i don't know why i am so ridiculously indecisive, that's just the way it plays out. and it pretty much sucks. especially right now. see, i've got this decision that is looming on the horizon, like one of those killer summer thunderstorms that you can see from miles away because it turns the sky as black as night. however, i enjoy those kind of storms but i really don't enjoy decision-making. especially big, huge, important decisions that are going to have a drastic effect on my future. and that i have to make on my own.

i swore up and down before that i was never going to put myself in the position where i would have to make a decision like this. but i threw myself headfirst into that trap, knowing full well the consequences. i think however, the experience was worth those consequences. i have been generally been a much happier person over the last number of months than i have been in a long time. i saw this decision coming from the very start, but i felt that it was a small price to pay for the happiness that i experienced along the way. and here i am now, staring it right in the face. if i could go back and redo it all, i would not change a single thing.

but i am terrified to make this decision. i have asked most, if not all, of my closest friends for their advice and wise words. most have had a common theme, but other details have been on complete opposite ends of the spectrum. this has caused me to realize that this is a decision that i have to make on my own. and that scares me. i'm terrified that i am going to make the wrong decision or screw things up in some way, shape, or form. but i just need to square my shoulders, take a deep breath, and do it. and hope and pray that it was the right thing to do.

-sarah

Boo to the male race

I hate how things never turn out the way I think they will.